Anyone that knows me knows I kind of hate country music.
Which is weird, right?
Because of course I should like it... I'm from Texas!
But I'm really not a fan.
But, to be honest...
Deep down inside, my inner Texan can't resist some good ole' country music!
You can take the girl out of Texas but you can't take Texas out of the girl.
It's ALL I used to listen to growing up, so I get VERY nostalgic when I listen to it.
The other day this song came on while I was in the car with my friend Michelle.
It was The House That Built Me by Miranda Lambert.
My first thought was to shun it because it was country.
But I listened to the words and realized what she was saying.
I was seriously bawling like a baby.
It was pretty embarrassing...
But this song meant/means so much to me right now.
This song applies perfectly to me during this time in my life.
Everyone has told me that college is the time of your life and how much fun it is!
But, to be honest with you...
I think it's the hardest time in life.
You have all of these HUGE life decisions that you have to make.
You're alone, away from home, have to make a new life for yourself...
And in my experience, on top of all of that change already, my best friend had unexpectedly died in a car accident.
As if I wasn't homesick enough during this time in my life.
And in my experience, on top of all of that change already, my best friend had unexpectedly died in a car accident.
As if I wasn't homesick enough during this time in my life.
These past 6 months of my life have been pretty traumatic and hard to live through.
But it seems whenever I go away from home I get lost in everything that's going on and forget who I am a little bit.
As I listened to this song, I thought about who I should be compared to the house that built me.
And then I thought about who I actually AM compared to the the house that built me...
And it really hit home for me.
I'm not living up to the house that built me.
To the parents that built the house that built me.
As I listened I also had overwhelming gratitude for my parents.
I love them with all of my heart and more.
They are always there for me and have sacrificed and continue to sacrifice so much for me.
This is another song that has definitely changed my life.
It made me step back, look at my life, and think... Is this really who I am and what I want to be?
Or, am I at least moving toward what I eventually want to be?
Or, am I at least moving toward what I eventually want to be?
Are you moving toward what you want in the eternal perspective?
C.
